I just got home from a nice beach vacation; no computer, no internet access, and my cell phone died on the trip. I didn't know I needed the break but now that it's over I can tell you that I certainly did.
I realized I was falling into an old pattern of mine where I forget to enjoy what I'm doing and get all caught up in the end product. That Type A personality comes barging in and I start making lists, setting goals, and putting myself on insane time tables. It wasn't until I stepped back from it all that I realized how much pressure I had (once again) put on myself.
What started as me making art for meditation turned into the following....
2 blogs
working on a new e-book
working on a third 30-Minute Mandalas coloring book
writing off and on for 2 websites
an Etsy.com webstore
a Shophandmade.com webstore
Coordinating a monthly ATC swap
and all the things that come with being SuperMom and WonderWife
And while I completely enjoy every single thing on that list I have to ask... what's the rush?! Why am I doing so many things at once? Why am I pushing myself to finish so many things? Am I in this for the process or the finish line?
I am going to try to reclaim the process. Enjoy every paint stroke and every mistake. I'm going to flow with life and let my angels guide me to my next adventure instead of plowing through it all, too busy to hear their calls.